God, thank you for everything. I know it is ONLY through your blessing and guidance that I AM. I truly pray that all my relationships are on a foundation set BY YOU God and nobody else. Only YOU my Lord decide who comes INTO my life and OUT.
I thank you for bringing those you’ve brought into my life IN and I pray that you place a shield Lord around those I love and who love me, so that doubt, harm and fear are not able to enter.
I pray that at my weakest, I am reminded my strength exist, within me and you to get me through. For I know it is your voice that brings me speech, your hand that allows me to touch and your guidance that allows me to walk, as your direction places me in moments to inspire.
You are the almighty. I pray that I listen to you with an open spirit and mind for it is YOU who never has or will forsake me, nor tell me wrong.
I’ve learned that when I am unable to stand you carry me and I can feel you carrying me now. From breath to breath your forgiving nature and unconditional love are appreciated.
I am blessed and highly favored. I know this. It is through you that I continue on my path to inspire lives across the world. Therefore, Lord I pray for growth that is unlimited and derived from the soil of the universe. For it is you, the creator, who aids in the creative change movement that I have been born into continuing.
I’ve been told by so many all of my wrongs my Lord, all the faults and mis-steps that shall break what I have built and am building Lord. Yet, I know it is through you that all has been built, therefore, I pray I DO NOT move when people try to shake MY FAITH or denounce MY LOVE. That I do not shiver or break at the coldness of hearts. For they have yet to feel or have forgotten the pureness of your love and the love you establish within others to share. I pray for this not only because I know COLDNESS and have developed an understanding of it as a disease but because I know YOU. Therefore, Lord, I pray that tolerance for the LIVING of LIFE and establishment of SELF be placed over all those you’ve blessed to be here.
For I know you have truly provided, this earth with me AS I AM, all for a reason. Therefore, as I continue to establish my understanding of YOU and of PURPOSE Lord I pray for serenity. I pray that your calm, becomes my calm. That your forgiveness continues to be my own and that my readiness to protect all that I love, does not come from a gun or the throwing of my fists, but from the words which you’ve so greatly bestowed upon me to share.
As I head in the right direction
I understand I will meet opposition and I remain grateful that you are there to deal with it.
I sincerely, with every ounce of life you’ve given me, THANK YOU.
“I would love for EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTERS to have EMERGENCY STOP BUTTONS - JayCali”
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For every moment God has blessed me with since October 17, 1987 I am thankful. There is not one day that goes by , even with obstacles in my way, that I am not appreciative and humble. I have gained access to the university of my dreams ( USC ) because I worked hard and believed that NOTHING could stop me but God’s decision that it wasn’t the place for me. I am truly grateful to have what I always wanted and as always my main focus is to help those that believe what they imagine will never become reality.
I said when I first started my tumblr that I was dreaming of a USC Life at night while at UCSD. Im living that dream now, dreams do come true and they are real. They simply take a lot more work than people are ready to put into them.
For those on my twitter, my tumblr, facebook and any other network I am a part of, posting my thoughts throughout the day, please KNOW that you ARE amazing and since the moment you were BORN you deserve to be HAPPY.
I thank each and every one of you for your continued support through words of inspiration , humor and updates on you. Although few of you KNOW ME in person, the reality of our times today, is that networks have brought us closer to people we may have never known. So your words truly bring a smile on my face daily.
To ALL those who DO know me or HAVE known me, I appreciate your moments in my life and although some of you were a part of a season … you will NEVER be forgotten.
There is more to come on my BDAY perhaps a poem & photos later
<3 Jay
I am NO longer afraid of letting go, it is an IMPORTANT ingredient in the recipe for GROWTH. - JayCali
Torn between 2 CITIES , feeling like if I left one for the other no1 would miss me , got so much on my PLATE can’t tell where the END be , but Im HUNGRY, so even if I finished I’d b yelling FEED ME
Only thing keeping me sane is my POETRY but hard work & dedication make it hard for me to NOTICE me, it’s like Im in a life marathon & the clock not controlled by me, so Im running fast before the clock stops even if it’s hurting me.
I know I can’t take a break to breathe deeply, so my words give me oxygen
And anytime I need to breathe easier
I run through these words instead of stoppin
That’s the mind state Im stuck in
Trying to be all you can be sends you in a whirlwind
but for me giving up isn’t an option
so no matter what , to continue, I gotta think of something
I’m frustrated but fuck it
I’ll take the happiness of being ME and what it comes with
consequences and punishments
Because I’d rather be breaking down, then sitting out missing this game,
So the suffering I go through to make it
I know is just a part of the plays
No matter what when I wake up
This is my everyday
so there’s always my will to make a way and ANYTIME I get like this when it seems SMALL things are becoming BIG things Im stressing over
I REMEMBER an OBSTACLE is NOTHIN to a BOSS on a mission to TAKE OVER
<3 Jay
If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain.
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.
“You can turn off the sun, but I’m still gonna shine.” — Jason Mraz (via reluctantbuddha) (via grace-notes)
My Eyes
SPEAK so much of what I cannot say EXPRESS so much of what I’ve chosen to hide LET GO with tears …all the pain that Ive tried to keep in. {Jay.Cali} ………..12.30.09………
FYI: There will come a day when you can’t take time to walk away and think about the most important things to you …at that very moment you’ll have to make a decision….on impulse ….if u don’t …u risk losing …everything you’ve worked for , everything you’ve known ….or all of someone you’ve come to love - Good Luck on making the right decision ….you’ll need it…the moment will come…it always does
..{Remember: PART OF LIFE …IS ABOUT TRUSTING THE SPIRIT OF LIFE GOD HAS GIVEN 2 YOU….IT KNOWS MORE THAN YOU GIVE IT CREDIT FOR} ~ JayCali